Sunday, November 10, 2013
omg i dreamt that i was grinding and clenching my teeth in my sleep, and subsequently woke up to a whole quadrant full of missing teeth on the right lower jaw, plus fractured upper and lower incisors. It was such a gruesome sight omg. ): thank goodness it was only a dream omg. when i woke up, my jaw hurt too ): i guess i was really clenching and grinding in my sleep lol. anyway i ran to the mirror the minute i woke up, just to check that my teeth were all still there. sigh this is so disturbing.
i went to google some dream interpretations for missing/broken teeth and apparently it indicates some sense of powerlessness/helplessness in one's waking life... well i guess that's true. i feel it everyday -.-
tomorrow i'm removing one of my patient's old gold crowns. i'm supposed to redo it, provided that it's still restorable. well... it is root-treated, and has a pin in it from the old amalgam core. tender to percussion, some interprox gum tenderness. i suspected that the tooth has cracked under the crown since like...1 year ago, when i first started seeing this patient (that was his chief complaint btw haha can't believe i only managed to start addressing it around now... ). but yes, i am now sick with apprehension, because my gut feeling tells me that the tooth really has fractured under the crown, in which case it's probably unrestorable and will be extracted.... gonna lose another crown indication sigh. i probably shouldn't be so pessimistic, because for all i know, the tooth is still intact and everything will be fine. but if there's any life lesson that dental school has taught me, it's that one shouldn't be too optimistic, and definitely not count one's chickens before they hatch. -.- oh wells, guess i will only know the outcome for sure after the crown is sectioned. till then, i will just continue to be sick with worry.
how much more of this shit can i take... sigh. there are only 15 weeks left to rush all the clinical requirements and competencies. well, 14 actually, cos OS posting week doesn't count. i really don't know if can stand this any longer.
